Excitement (n): 1. The feeling that your skin is becoming so light and sizzling with energy that it’s about to explode out in all directions to let your soul expand and say, “I’M HERE! LOOK AT ME! THE WORLD IS MAGNIFICENT AND SO AM I!” And your soul then has nothing anchoring it to the ground anymore so it rises up and starts doing beautiful aerobatics for everyone to see.   2. When your soul makes performance art.

My excitement has a little shame attached to it. It says, “How could you lose faith after so little time? Why have you been moping and whingeing around when all you needed was patience?” But my real self tells me, “Nah, Girl.” (It always calls me “girl.”) “You didn’t lose trust. You haven’t been ‘moping and whingeing.’ You’ve been sitting with frustration and worry, and feeling your feelings. But while that was going on, you kept working your ass off.”

And I woke up to a gig offer this morning.